I watch how the Moon sits in the sky in the dark night Shining with the light from the sun The sun doesn't give life to the moon to assuming The moon's going to owe it one It makes me think of how you act to me you do Favors and then rapidly you just Turn around and start asking me about Things you want back from me I'm sick of the tension sick of the hunger Sick of you acting like I owe you this Find another place to feed your greed While I find a place to rest
I want to be in another place I hate when you say you don't understand (You'll see it's not meant to be) I want to be in the energy, not with the enemy A place for my head
Maybe someday I'll be just like you and Step on people like you do and run Away the people I thought I knew I remember back then who you were You used to be calm used to be strong Used to be generous but you should've known that you'd Wear out your welcome now you see How quiet it is all alone I'm so Sick of the tension sick of the hunger Sick of you acting like I owe you this Find another place to feed your greed While I find a place to rest I'm so Sick of the tension sick of the hunger Sick of you acting like I owe you this Find another place to feed your greed While I find a place to rest
Where should I start Disjointed heart I've got no commitment To my own flesh and blood Left all alone Far from my home No one to hear me, to heal my ill heart, I Keep it locked up inside Cannot express To the point I've regressed If anger's a gift, then I guess I've been blessed, I..
Keep it locked up inside Keep my distance from your lies
Cannot express To the point I've regressed If anger's a gift, then I guess I've been blessed, I..
Keep it locked up inside Keep my distance from your lies
It's too late to love me now You helped me to show me It's too late to love me now You don't take a word in
Breaking a part of my heart to find release Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace Breaking a part of my heart to find release Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace
Breaking a part of my heart to find release (Break) Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace (Me) Breaking a part of my heart to find release (Too) Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace
Keep it locked up inside Keep my distance from your lies
Breaking a part of my heart to find release (Break) Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace (Me) Breaking a part of my heart to find release (Too) Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace Breaking a part of my heart to find release Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace Breaking a part of my heart to find release Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace
Keep my distance Keep my distance Keep my distance Keep my distance
Spit drips in the jar, the witless witness Cryptic code, realism shifts your mystic Dark all I do embark the shadows, Involved with my thought catalogue, analogue, rap catalogue Keep my distance, answer your resistance, hurt by persistance, The twisted web of tangled lies strangles my hope to waste and numbs the taste And I'm forced to face these hate crimes against the state of being Feeling the weightlessness pressing between the ceiling, reeling around room, Riding a bubble of sound proof, it's the frequency making you Shake-shake with every boom Involuntary muscle contraction, ignoring and drinking musical gas field euphoria The sound counts to make the dead flush to have you a head rush with red thoughts and said stuff.
Memories concern Like opening the wound I'm picking me apart again You all assume I'm safer in my room Unless I try to start again
[Chorus] I don't want to be the one Who battles always choose Cuz inside I realize That I'm the one confused
I don't know what's worth fighting for Or why I have to scream I don't know why I instigate And say what I don't mean I don't know how I got this way I know it's not alright So I'm breaking the habit I'm breaking the habit tonight
Cultured my cure I tightly lock the door I try to catch my breath again I hurt much more Than anytime before I have no options left again
[Chorus] I dont want to be the one Who battles always choose Cuz inside I realize That I'm the one confused
I don't know what's worth fighting for Or why I have to scream I don't know why I instigate And say what I don't mean I don't know how I got this way I'll never be alright So, I'm breaking the habit I'm breaking the habit tonight
I'll paint it on the walls Cuz I'm the one that falls I'll never fight again And this is how it ends
[Chorus] I don't know what's worth fighting for Or why I have to scream But now I have some clarity to show you what I mean I don't know how I got this way I'll never be alright So, I'm breaking the habit I'm breaking the habit I'm breaking the habit tonight
What do I do to ignore them behind me? Do I follow my instincts blindly? Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening? Do I sit here and try to stand it? Or do I try to catch them red-handed? Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness? Because I can't hold on when I'm stretched so thin I make the right moves but I'm lost within I put on my daily facade but then I just end up getting hurt again By myself (myself) I ask why, but in my mind I find I can't rely on myself
I can't hold on To what I want when I'm stretched so thin It's all too much to take in I can't hold on To anything watching everything spin With thoughts of failure sinking in
If I Turn my back I'm defenseless And to go blindly seems senseless If I hide my pride and let it all go on then they'll Take from me till everything is gone If I let them go I'll be outdone But if I try to catch them I'll be outrun If I'm killed by the questions like a cancer Then I'll be buried in the silence of the answer (By myself)
How do you think I've lost so much I'm so afraid I'm out of touch How do you expect I will know what to do When all I know is what you tell me to
Don't you know I can't tell you how to make it go No matter what I do how hard I try I can't seem to convince myself why I'm stuck on the outside
She can't hide no matter how hard she tries Her secret disguise behind her lies And at night she cries away her pride With eyes shut tight, staring at her inside All her friends know why she can't sleep at night All her family asking if she's all right All she wants to do is get rid of this hell Well all she's gotta do is stop kidding herself
She can only fool herself for so long She can only fool herself for so long She can only fool herself for so long She can only fool herself for so long
I'm too weak to face me I never know just why you run So far away, far away from me I never know just why you run So far away, far away from me
When it comes to how to live his life He can't be told Says he's got it all under control Thinks he knows it's not a problem he's stuck with But in reality, it'd be a problem to just quit An addict and he can't hold the reigns The pain is worse cause his friends have it the same Tries to slow down the problem he's got But can't get off the carousel Until he makes it stop
He can only fool himself for so long He can only fool himself for so long He can only fool himself for so long He can only fool himself for so long
I'm too weak to face me I never know just why you run So far away, far away from me I never know just why you run So far away, far away from me
Try to fly with the wings I gave you Try to do what you believe and I'll save you Try to fly with the wings I gave you Try to do what you believe and I'll save you I never know just why you run So far away, far away from me I never know just why you run So far away, far away from me I never know just why you run So far away, far away from me I never know just why you run So far away, far away from me
Crawling in my skin, These wounds they will not heal, Fear is how I fall, Confusing what is real
There's something inside me that crawls beneath the surface, Consuming, confusing, It's like a self control I feel is never ending, It's haunting, How I can't seem To find myself again, My walls are closing in, Without a sense of self confidence, And I'm convinced that there's just to much pressure to take, I've felt this way before, So insecure
Crawling in my skin, These wounds they will not heal, Fear is how I fall, Confusing what it real,
Discomfort endlessly had pulled itself upon me, Distracting, reacting,
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection, It's haunting, How I can't seem,
To find myself again, My walls are closing in, Without a sense of confidence, And I'm convinced there's just to much pressure to take I've felt this way before, So insecure,
Crawling in my skin, These wounds they will not heal, Fear is how I fall, Consuming, confusing what is real. (without a sense of confidence, and i'm conviced there's to much pressure to take)
I have a dream of a scene between the green hills Clouds pull away and the sunlight's revealed People don't talk about keeping it real It's understood that they actually will And intoxicated and stimulated emcees Staring into dreams, paranoid, are gone in the breeze Watch them flee, hip-hop heads Take a walk with me and what you'll see Is a land where the sand's made of crushed up wax And the sky beyond you is Krylon Blue And everybody speaks in a dialective rhyme Emcees have left materialism behind them Meanwhile I just grip my mic And hope me and my team make it through all right Because say what you will and say what you might But don't ignore who it's for at the end of the night
Because this is dedicated to the kids Dedicated to wherever music lives Dedicated to those tired of the same old same And dedicated to the people advancing the game What's real Is the kids who know that something's wrong What's real Is the kids who think they don't belong What's real Is the kids who have nowhere to run Who're hiding in the shadows waiting for the sun
I've seen a lot of shit I've talked to a bum out on Sunset Strip He asked me, 'How would you feel If everybody acted like you didn't exist You'd lose your grip, and probably eventually flip' So let it be know the only reason that we do this Is so you can pick it up and just bang your head to it While emcees fight to see who can be the commonist We float overhead like a space oddysey monolith Overseeing the game over being part of the same old thing It's all going to change and a hurricane of darkness and pain And acidic rain, promises you won't do it again Meanwhile I just grip my mic And hope me and my team make it through all right Because say what you will and say what you might But don't ignore who it's for at the end of the night
Because this is dedicated to the kids Dedicated to wherever music lives Dedicated to those tired of the same old same And dedicated to the people advancing the game What's real Is the kids who know that something's wrong What's real Is the kids who think they don't belong What's real Is the kids who have nowhere to run Who're hiding in the shadows waiting for the sun
Pulling me close the shadow is warm inside This is where I feel at home, this is my place to hide Pulling me close the shadow is warm inside This is where I feel at home, this is my place to hide
This is dedicated to the kids Dedicated to wherever music lives Dedicated to those tired of the same old same And dedicated to the people advancing the game What's real Is the kids who know that something's wrong What's real Is the kids who think they don't belong What's real Is the kids who have nowhere to run Who're hiding in the shadows waiting for the sun
This is dedicated to the kids Dedicated to wherever music lives Dedicated to those tired of the same old same And dedicated to the people advancing the game What's real Everybody who doesn't feel safe What's real Everybody who knows they're out of place What's real Everybody with nowhere to run Who're hiding in the shadows waiting for the sun
Sometimes I need to remember just to breathe Sometimes I need you to stay away from me Sometimes I'm in disbelief I didn't know Somehow I need you to go
Don't stay Forget our memories Forget our possibilities What you were changing me into Just give me myself back and Don't stay Forget our memories Forget our possibilities Take all your faithlessness with you Just give me myself back and Don't stay
Sometimes I feel like I trusted you too well Sometimes I just feel like screaming at myself Sometimes I'm in disbelief I didn't know Somehow I need to be alone
Don't stay Forget our memories Forget our possibilities What you were changing me into Just give me myself back and Don't stay Forget our memories Forget our possibilities Take all your faithlessness with you Just give me myself back and Don't stay
I don't need you anymore, I don't want to be ignored I don't need one more day of you wasting me away I don't need you anymore, I don't want to be ignored I don't need one more day of you wasting me away With no apologies
Don't stay Forget our memories Forget our possibilities What you were changing me into Just give me myself back and Don't stay Forget our memories Forget our possibilities Take all your faithlessness with you Just give me myself back and Don't stay
[Chorus] It's easier to run Replacing this pain with something more It's so much easier to go Than face all this pain here all alone
Something has been taken from deep inside of me The secret I've kept locked away no one can ever see Wounds so deep they never show they never go away Like moving pictures in my head for years and years they've played
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would) (Retrace every wrong move that I made I would) (If I could stand up and take the blame I would) (If I could take all the shame to the grave I would) (If I could change I would take back the pain I would) (Retrace every wrong move that I made I would) (If I could stand up and take the blame I would) (I would take all my shame to the grave)
[Chorus] It's easier to run Replacing this pain with something more It's so much easier to go Than face all this pain here all alone
Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past Bringing back these memories I wish I didn't have Sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back And never moving forward so there'd never be a path
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would) (Retrace every wrong move that I made I would) (If I could stand up and take the blame I would) (If I could take all the shame to the grave I would) (If I could change I would take back the pain I would) (Retrace every wrong move that I made I would) (If I could stand up and take the blame I would) (I would take all my shame to the grave)
Just watching in the sun All of my helplessness inside Pretending I don't feel misplaced It's so much simpler to change
[Chorus] It's easier to run Replacing this pain with something more It's so much easier to go Than face all this pain here all alone
It's easier to run (If I could change I would take back the pain I would) (Retrace every wrong move that I made) It's easier to go (If I could change I would take back the pain I would) (Retrace every wrong move that I made I would) (If I could stand up and take the blame I would) (I would take all my shame to the grave)
Riding with a head full of bodies are red And when this x is still stuck in my head But misled doing the things I do would make you never wanna come back But an all front attack, so you could never run from that Being trapped in this beau, some that I never wanted to do But through it all you've got to see that what I want to be Is over the pen again letting it out of me In the center of the day in the dream, seeing all my thoughts Getting lost in between, realizing one that the way to the sea And the killing and again are in the head with the screams
I wanna live in another place Where no one can say that I live for them I wanna be in the energy, not with the enemy A place for my head
We're gonna be crushed when it all falls apart Going in the hollow, hoping that you won't know The strain it puts to me, seeing what you've done And consequently I've run away, just hitting again Within the boundaries of an anguish Want me to say this, but you're dragging me down Lost in the chaos being tossed around
Singing again to myself, a head full of hectic Hope that some day you'll regret this Everything's the wrong place, the wrong time Adding to the panic in my confine
Singing again to myself, a head full of hectic Hope that some day you'll regret this Everything's the wrong place, the wrong time Adding to the panic in my confine
I wanna live in another place Where no one can say that I live for them I wanna be in the energy, not with the enemy A place for my head
You Tried to take the best of me Go away
You Tried to take the best of me Go away
You Tried to take the best of me Go away
You Tried to take the best of me GO AWAY
You Tried to take the best of me, go away You Tried to take the best of me, go away You Tried to take the best of me, go away You Tried to take the best of me, go away
I wanna live in another place Where no one can say that I live for them I wanna be in the energy, not with the enemy A place for my head
Shut up
Singing again to myself, a head full of hectic Hope that some day you'll regret this Everything's the wrong place, the wrong time Adding to the panic in my confine going blind
Singing again to myself, a head full of hectic Hope that some day you'll regret this Everything's the wrong place, the wrong time Adding to the head of mine, confined
I am a little bit of loneliness a little bit of disregard Handful of complaints but I can't help the fact that everybody can see these scars I am what I want you to want what I want you to feel But it's like no matter what I do, I can't convince you, to just believe this is real So I let go, watching you, turn your back like you always do Face away and pretend that I'm not But I'll be here cause you want what I've got
[Chorus] (I can't feel the way I did before) (Don't turn your back on me) (I won't be ignored) (Time won't heal this damage anymore) (Don't turn your back on me) (I won't be ignored)
I am a little bit insecure a little unconfident Cause you don't understand I do what I can but sometimes I don't make sense I say what you never wanna say but I've never had a doubt It's like no matter what I do I can't convince you for once just to hear me out So I let go watching you turn your back like you always do Face away and pretend that I'm not But I'll be here 'cause you're all that I've got
[Chorus] (I can't feel the way I did before) (Don't turn your back on me) (I won't be ignored) (Time won't heal this damage anymore) (Don't turn your back on me) (I won't be ignored)
(Now) (Hear me out now) (You're gonna listen to me, like it or not) (Right now) (Hear me out now) (You're gonna listen to me, like it or not) (Right now)
(I can't feel the way I did before) (Don't turn your back on me) (I won't be ignored)
[Chorus] (I can't feel the way I did before) (Don't turn your back on me) (I won't be ignored) (Time won't heal this damage anymore) (Don't turn your back on me) (I won't be ignored)
[Chorus] (I can't feel the way I did before) (Don't turn your back on me) (I won't be ignored) (Time won't heal this damage anymore) (Don't turn your back on me) (I won't be ignored)
I can't feel I won't be ignored Time won't heal Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored
Nothing ever stops all these thoughts and the pain attached to them Sometimes I wonder why this is happening It's like nothing I can do would distract me when I think of how I shot myself in the back again Cuz from the infinite words I can say I Put all pain you gave to me on display But didn't realize instead of setting it free I Took what I hated and made it a part of me
(Never goes away) (Never goes away)
[Chorus] (And now) (You've become a part of me) (You'll always be right here) (You've become a part of me) (You'll always be my fear) (I can't separate) (Myself from what I've done) (Giving up a part of me) (I've let myself become you)
Hearing your name the memories come back again I remember when it started happening I see you n' every thought I had and then The thoughts slowly found words attached to them And I knew as they escaped away I was committing myself to em n' everyday I regret saying those things cuz now I see that I Took what I hated and made it a part of me
(Never goes away) (Never goes away)
[Chorus] (And now) (You've become a part of me) (You'll always be right here) (You've become a part of me) (You'll always be my fear) (I can't separate) (Myself from what I've done) (Giving up a part of me) (I've let myself become you)
(Get away from me) Give me my space back you gotta just (Go) Everything comes down the memories of (You) I kept it in without letting you (Know) I let you go so get away from (Me) Give me my space back you gotta just (Go) Everything comes down the memories of (You) I kept it in without letting you (Know) I let you go
(And then) (You've become a part of me) (You'll always be right here) (You've become a part of me) (You'll always be my fear) (I can't separate) (Myself from what I've done) (Giving up a part of me) (I've let myself become you)
From the top to the bottom Bottom to top I stop At the core I've forgotten In the middle of my thoughts Taken far from my safety The picture is there The memory won't escape me But why should I care
There's a place so dark you can't see the end (Skies cock back) and shock that which can't defend The rain then sends dripping an acidic question Forcefully, the power of suggestion Then with the eyes tightly shut looking thought the rust and rot And dust a spot of light floods the floor And pours over the rusted world of pretend The eyes ease open and its dark again
In the memory you'll find me Eyes burning up The darkness holding me tightly Until the sun rises up
Moving all around screaming of the ups and downs Pollution manifested in perpetual sound The wheels go round and the sunset creeps past the Street lamps, chain-link and concrete A little piece of paper with a picture drawn floats On down the street till the wind is gone The memory now is like the picture was then When the paper's crumpled up it can't be perfect again
Now you got me caught in the act You bring the thought back I'm telling you that I see it right through you
I don't know who to trust your surprise (Everyone feels so far away from me) Happy thoughts sift through dust and the lies (Trying not to break but I'm so tired of this deceit) (Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet) (All I ever think about is this) (All the tiring time between) (And how trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me)
[Chorus] Take everything from the inside and throw it all away Cuz I swear for the last time I won't trust myself with you
Tension is building inside steadily (Everyone feels so far away from me) Happy thoughts forcing their way out of me (Trying not to break but I'm so tired of this deceit) (Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet) (All I ever think about is this) (All the tiring time between) (And how trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me)
[Chorus] Take everything from the inside and throw it all away Cuz I swear for the last time I won't trust myself with you
I won't waste myself on you You You Waste myself on you You You
I'll take everything from the inside and throw it all away Cuz I swear for the last time I won't trust myself with you
Everything from the inside and just throw it all away Cuz I swear for the last time I won't trust myself with you You You